Seen facebook messages, unreplied texts, missed calls, inconsistency, efforts that hang midair .. how often do we allow ourselves to settle in something that we know we never deserve?

All these attempts at trying to sweep me of off my feet were cute at first, it made me feel like maybe I wasn’t really that bad, that despite the flaws I see whenever I look at the mirror, didn’t know that some people could look past at that. But I don’t know, I just think that maybe I have so much love to give that it terrifies me to give it all to one person; thus making it hard for me to completely risk everything. But I did, didn’t I? Because I fucking gave you a second chance. Because I fucking LOVE YOU in my own fucked up ways. I wasn’t always the first person to text anyone, but you are an exception because I wanted things to work out between us. I wanted us to at least get a chance, a shot for a new, better relationship with you where we can say what we want or be whoever we want. But as I see all the seen messages, the opened text messages that you never paid attention to, it just shows how much you value my worth, which is close to the space between nothing and everything. You’re sweet today, and tomorrow, you’re cold. You tell me exactly the things I wanted to hear from you and yet the next hour, you’re flirting with another girl, Congratulations, you have managed to hurt me for the 12343 time! Are you happy? Do you want a punch in the face as a token for appreciation?


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It seemed like I lost my touch in writing… I couldn’t even write a one proper entry about me being heartbroken or anythIng that will soothe this ache inside.


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